People. I apologise if these days i am smiling a rather bruised smile.( i know i resemble hitler) My teeth are killing me. Wanzhen was nice enough to offer me porridge made by her grandma.(yumyum) Today, fyan mad some nasty comments about wanzhen and i. Cant blame him, he hangs around with tits and alwynna. He got so mentally ill that he had delusions that wanzhen msned him a porn to him. In his dreams. Alwynna understands. She was sobbing when she say Fyan's poor twisted state of mind. We shall all pray for Fyan. God bless him. Wanzhen is a physchiatrist. ( on the criminal mind.). She knows what is wrong with him. She says its "fuckaprena" , in which the patient has slurred speech. Frequent yelling and emotional outbreaks. This illness is rather unique. The patient frequently fucks a cabbage or carrot. Male and female respectively. Though a female case is extremely rare. God bless Fyan.
(what and odd name)
By the way, this is wanzhen the wonderful. She wants to say something. I wont let her but she still will...
"zahzahzah" :)
Guess what? i just searched through my mom's jewellery box. Damn. she doesnt have any vintage pieces, except for a few pearl earrings , necklaces, bracelets and brooches.
Mother of pearl.

dearest readers. This poem is in my english textbook. it really spoke to me.
The Fifth sense

A 65-year-old Cypriot Greek shepherd, Nicolis Loizou, was wounded by security forces. He was challenged twice; wheb he fialed to answer, troops opened fire. A subsequent hospital examination showed that the man was deaf.

Lamps burn all night
Here, where people must be watched and seen,
And I, a shepherd, Nicolis Loizou,
Wish for the dark, for i have been
Sure-footed in the dark, but now my sight
Stumbles among these beds, scatterd white boulders,
As i lean towards my far slumbering house
With the night slumbering upon my shoulders.

My sight was always good,
Better than others. I could taste wine and bread
And name the field they spattered when the harvest
Broke. I could coil in the red
Scent of the fox out of a maze of wood
And grass. I could touch mist. I could touch breath
But of my sharp senses i had only four.
The fifth one pinned me to my death

The soldiers must have called
The word they needed: Halt, not hearing it,
I was thir failure, relaxed against the winter
Sky, the flag of their defeat.
With their five senses they could not have told
That I lacked one, and so they had to shoot.
They would fire at a rainbow if it had
A colour less than they were taught.

Christ said that one sheep
Was lost, the rest meant nothing anymore.
Here in this hospital, where others' breathing
Swngs like a lantern in the polished floor
And squeezes those who cannot sleep,
I see how precious each thing is, how dear,
For I may never touch, smell, taste or see
Again, because i could not hear

ahh.. how unfortunate.

Hello people :) guess what? me and wanzhen lost the debate. haha. its okay. but i am dissappointed, but the propostion did a good job. I went for my dental checkup and they tightened my wires. Now i cannot eat anything but porridge again. :(
Today wanzhen and I went to watch Ultraviolet. Its a pretty cool movie. A bit like aeon flux though. Hot girl as protaganist. Cloning involved. Diabolical plan. Set in the future. yeah. anyway, nice show. really. We ate mango pudding during the movie. Wanzhen finished her's before the movie started. And halfway during the movie she stopped watching altogether and started sniffing herself. She told me she smelled like Mr.Teo's cologne. Haha. Maybe she's cologne absorbent. She said she didnt get the show. But we had fun. We cracked this silly joke"my name is violet, my surname is ultra" i know its lame. but we laughed our heads off. i miss wanzhen already. :(
got the message : this is wanzhen's -> :D

dearest readers. I am blogging from the library in Hillgrove. All is well today.This morning wanzhen finally found Greyia and Cotton. She says she isnt sure of cotton's condition, but at least cotton survived! All the lessons today were ok. Mr Rojes didnt come, Mr chin didnt come, Chinese we had a an exhibtiton in the hillgrove hall. I missed half of PC because i was late. It wasnt my fault. The closed early today, no, they do not have a tendency to do that. this morning i left my house at 7. the bus came at 7.12 am.(typical) I reached school at 7.20 Yes my watch's time is accurate as later i checked with the recess bell. Mr. liposuction made us run 2.4 km. assholes. If tomorrow i am late it would be 4.8 km. what the hell.
Nevermind the upsetting bit of today. ( i smelled after the running, ugh!) today wanzhen has gone for her prizegiving day ceremony :) i am soo proud of her :)
She has got the highest for English last year. Tomorrow is the debate *groan* just thinking about it makes my stomach hurt. What the debate has to do with my stomach i do not know. Sigh.
okok. one last upsetting bit about today. People kept insulting me and wanzhen, although we did our fair share of insulting others :) Well for starters that fimmy harrassed wanzhen. Some wankers through a bottle at my butt and attempted to throw another. ( they guffawed when the saw the throw had hit the target) While me and wanzhen were innocently sipping our drinks this arsehole comes up and threw a rugby ball at me and wanzhen. wanzhen scrammed but i stood still. Later i flashed my middle finger. He did it back. I did it again in a waving motion. Whatever. Neighbourhood school delinquents. Anyway me and wanzhen are also nothing good. :)

wanzhen, was here. and she also said 'fuck you' to alwynna.

heya! i know i blogged twice today, but i cant help it. haha. i was bloghopping today, well, just now. i visited my church member's blog. i tagged a few and left my link. i know them. Karyn i met her on the bus last year. mellimoo is my cell mate's sis ( cell mate , LOL) rosaline i went to sentosa with her once. kinda distant. but i would like to know more people online. Corban and i4c has merged. so i read for the blogs. interesting. no wonder i saw them having dinner together last saturday. Well, last saturday something kinda embarrassing happened. as the cellgroups were all eating happily, guess what? someone yelled RACHEL! get here quick! (something along the lines of that) I stared like some retard. Then a girl with pretty long hair came from behind me. typical. The embarrassing bit was that i stood there, and everybody was LOOKING at me. They all know my name is Rachel. And frankly Audrey hates me. :\ . wthell.Ah well, these are the problems associated with common names. From now onward everybody call me anus. lol.

Greetings fellow Martians.
sorry for the inconvenience caused. i needed to change my URL. firstly, i have quitted tibia and i do not want anything to do with it. secondly, my blog has become too public for my liking. Today was another great day. Well, we had PE, which was ok. English was fun. FINE! i am overall happy. i do not know why :) The tuas trip stank. and i mean literally too. That place was all of the rubbish from singapore accumulated to one place, the transported to the landfill islands.

Ahh. What peace. How blissful. i Love my heavenly father. his greatness is unimaginable. People must have always wondered why i am so devout. Its the peace that He gives you. Knowing that he is in control and you dont have to care. Knowing that you are never alone. And not fearing death. I am afraid of the pain. But when i depart this world rest assured i will go in peace. Yes, i have to annouce shocking news. i have only got 8 more months to live. My doctor said that i am not active enough, now my body is disintergrating. i am gonna make the best of there 8 months, hence the unexplainable joy :)

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore
Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don’t break it
Love was made for me and you

L.O.V.E -by Nat King Cole

what a sweet song huh? I get it stuck on my head every Saturday night. Yes i watch " Sad Love Story" that sort of korean drama that makes people cry. My mom thinks i am mad to watch such a show. i think the show is very interesting. But the name itself proves that it is sad :(. today was a great day. I learnt a valuable lesson today. i learnt a few :). Of course if you read about my day u would say i am crazy to be happy
I woke up in the morning. Rushed to school for GB, forgetting my uniform and boots. I had no skirt to wear so i went in my shorts, which frankly, made me embarrassed.
I reached school on time, only to recieve another scolding from Qianyi. I promise you she is gifted in scolding and nagging, but nothing else. I got angry at her and walked out of school in front of her. She later denied that she knew i left, then insisted that she got scolding because of me. Oh please. The one in deep shit is me, so dont complain to me about the captain's little comments.
Later i went home. Saw this guy feeding a small kitten, not very large, really tiny, some shit. Not literally shit, but i couldnt identify it. The kitten ate it hungrily, but it was raw and stuff, and i am worried for the kitty. The person who gave the kitty the shit looked at me in the " go fuck yourself" stare indicating that i should leave the kitty alone. Asshole.
I went back home. Got nagged at by my mom and grandma. Got scolded by my dad and esther yelled me some vulgarity. Later, i was late for church. A friend of mine told what i shared with her to her little brother, whom i know will tell everybody.Someone brought a friend to church, who turns out to be lesbian. My handphone then got stolen from me. I lost two handphones in the same place for4months.

On the other hand. Noel was really helpful about my handphone. I made a new friend and we totally trashed mcdonalds. Cheryl geniunely encouraged me. I learnt how to forgive. My mom didnt scream at me, instead she was understanding. ( that was some miracle, God). I learnt how to be patient.

today is a friday. i just realised something. Wanzhen and I are leaving hillgrove. We both are. I am moving to bukit merah and wanzhen is leaving! sob* i am gonna be so sad. We are going to take tons of pictures to remember our friendship. If she does leave, that means we wont meet until we are like eighteen or nineteen. This year i am only 14. But we most definitely will keep the promise. Thats to go clubbing together. But we both must work hard. If wanzhen works hard she will go to a private, elite school. Then she will not be influenced by the drugs and stuff. And i must work hard, as with this sort of marks i will got to normal academic. I am failing badly. Its my art and DT. Chinese is damn hard for me to pass. Sigh. I dont wanna go to normal academic. People there dont even bother to study. Then i will get influenced. Ah well. This is a promise i made with myself. STUDY! and put in effort for my damn art :(
I will miss wanzhen. But she will be better off leaving. And that place has better educational opportunities. I wish her all the best. gogo jiayou :)

got back to school. Ugh it was horrible. I spent the night looking for all my ws, and still forgot to bring some. The very first day of school i was late,but i managed to escape the torture running. of course, geography wasnt back ( thats because the teacher isnt here, hehe) i discussed the debate with wanzhen. of course, today, someone didnt allow us to borrow her chair, so i had to make do and kick kahkeng away. there are alot of people who are jealous of me and wanzhen's friendship, ahwell.
On sunday, the last days of the holidays, i realised i bought the worng book for literature, shit right? apparently i bought the uppersec text book.
I finally found my friends blog, tommy. I hunted the whole web for it. Darn.
ohyes. i got news. my family has finally managed to sell my house. now we are moving to bukit merah. yay! its a 4 room flat, so finally i will get my own room. Its gonna be freaky to sleep by myself.

OKAY. i admit. Thi post is boring, even i am bored myself. haha, wanzhen is with greyia. SOB! i saw her, oops him ( like i said, transexual) he climbed on to my lap. and wanzhen pulled me away, sob!

My Ambitions.
When i was in kindergarten, i wanted to be a teacher.
When i was in primary 1, i wanted to be an actress.
Primary2, i wanted to be an artist.
Primary 3 i wanted to be britney spears' backup singer. ( this was crazy, i know)
primary 4 i wanted to be a part of the harry potter cast. I wanted to be cast as chochang. haha. Then i realised they needed a pretty girl so i gave up.
Primary 5 i was 11 and i was hoping to recieve a letter that says,
Dear Ms Rachel Chong, we are pleased to inform you that you have been accepted in Hogwarts School for Witchcraft and Wizardry....
Primary 6 i wanted to get into commonwealth secondary, Obviously it didnt quite come true as i would NEVER have entered hillgrove secondary.
Sec1 i wanted to be a cell group leader. leader of shalom actually. Then it split. oh well. ( yes i wanted to squeeze Daniel out of leadership. hehe)
sec2 my ambition for this year?
do well in nissi
do well for school
get out of hillgrove

simple as that :)

hello. I went for both outings. shalom was kinda boring. We sat around doing nothing. Waiting for people to come. Esther didnt get to come. Shalom was relxing but the nissi outing was crazie! haha. so many people crammed into one place. Mic bay lives on the first floor. So you can easily climbd out and to the swimming pool.We had steam boat, played a game of twister. (I WON!) chocolate fondue. And i went for a night swim. How fun xD
But i came home soaking wet :)
www.nissi2.blogspot.com thats their blog i think :)

hello. Today is the 14 of march. Today we had Geo remedial. I cant believe they can be such idiots. Make us go back for school, cant they wait until school reopens? Some more that stupid ms wang dont want us to do practical on her lessons, then waste two good days with her in school. Honestly, CANT she wait for for the holidays to be over? Sure shes hardworking, but isnt this already classified under WORKAHOLIC?
Anyway, i have another dilemma yet again. I think this is the second dilemma in the last two weeks. I dont usually get dilemmas. I usually make decisions on the spot, according to wanzhen. :) The problem is , Both nissi and shalom have an outing on the same day, and i cant choose. I know this sounds trivial. But its really important t0o me.
Pros and cons going with shalom:
PROS
-I know almost all of them, i feel more comfortable
-This is rather rare, while i see nissilight every week.
-WE ARE GOING ROLLERBLADING
-I gave them my word first

CONS
-i am soo not supposed to go with SHALOM. I am supposed to go and BOND with the nissis. Mission Impossible Indeed.
-I am soo not feeling well

GOING WITH THE NISSIS
Pros
- Getta bond with them. Wont get labeled antisocial.
-They are going having games and CHOCOLATE FONDUE.
-Get along more with the cellgroup.

Cons
-Dont know them well, i will get left out
-Cheryl will be there giving me the "stares"


*- SOLUTION
-COMPROMISE :)
I will go for shalom first, leave at 3 find micbay's address :)
Wanzhen doesnt like this solution. But i want the best of both worlds. haha
Or the i might not be able to go for both. I may fall ill and be unable to leave my bed. Sigh

This are the times where u push everything into God's hands and not care

hello
Today is the 13 of march monday. I promised myself that today i would go watch desperate housewives. I dont care what my mom say. Today i went out with my sis and xinyi. its a bit crazy. anyway i also went to wanzhen's house after that. She was pissed as that arse amirul totally dissed her.Anyway, I cheered her up. Hehe. We bouhgt greyia up, she kept fidgeting. Well she slept for a while, then, she woke up and begun clawing at my wrists and running away in hope of finding the exit. The other time she did that she nearly jumped off 16 storeys. Crazy? she scared wanzhen to near tears.
Now i finally learnt how to handle cats already. Greyia is extremely gentle, only she claws people when she's happy. Ouch.


PS: Wanzhen found out Greyia's a male. An addition to our transexual pets

RACHEL AND WANZHEN: DRAMAQUEENS

The science retreat was really fun! i took tons of pictures, well maybe just a few. But they are really nice, and i am proud of 'em:) . We had to listen to talks, but they WERE interesting. You see, they talked about sharks, turtles, dugongs and watched a clip on pink dolphins. All the creatures mentioned, except the latter, are facing threats by humans. Humans kill sharks for their fins, for sport and for their jaws. Shark movies such as JAWS obviously didnt help them. Turtles are hunted for their shells and skin. Dugongs, get this, get sliced into HALVES when a fast moving boat comes along. Its because they move rather slow. All of the marine creatures face threats from discarded fishing nets, which can be up to a length of many kilometres.The attraction of underwater world for me was the sea angels. They are about, 2 cm in length? and can survive only at low tempretures. They exist in the artic ocean, where its very cold. They do not have sexes, meaning one sea angel will have both the male and female sexual organs. They feed on small marine snails and Only have the sense of touch. they are really adorable looking, and i never knew they existed. The floor of underwater world tunnel is really dusty. cough cough. I got to pet a pink dolphin. Its skin was wrinkly. I skipped cell. Coz i didnt feel like goign, i was really tired. Why? Because some idiot woke us up at 5 when we were supposed to wake at 7+. nutters. So guess what i did? I sat at Uncle bobby's, ate egg sandwiches. And sang the misiion impossible theme with wanzhen on the phone. People looked at me like i was nuts. Oh well.this is a long post. by the way. the translucent being you see in the pic above is a sea angel. i promise you they look better in real life.

today is the 10th, i wanted to blog yesterday, but i forgot. Apologies to my adoring fans. I am going off to science retreat soon. or whatever they call it. I am in a dilemma now as i dont know what to pack.This morning i came to school late. amazingly, wanzhen ran back for me, she wanted to take the same bus, so she got off, and ran a mile or 2. Thanks! we got late anyway, and we had fun talking , laughing and humming the mission impossible theme song. Haha. Peope looked at us weird.Anyway. Today we had the class debate. My team won. yay! charlene's team looked frustrated indeed. I kept stuttering and i had a panic attack or so. When joey's team was debating, i asked a question. A civilised question, then joey kept narrowing her eyes at me , and changing the subject.Today we also had classroom cleaning, wanzhen and i did minimal work, i got my rag from qianyi (thanks!) We ranout, taufiq gave us funny eyes, then when he go to the little boys room, wanzhen took a peek, she told me that urinals were square. Taufiq looked traumatised. haha

today is the 8th of march. Initially, Qianyi thought it was the 7th, coz thats what was indicated on the board. Haha. Little blunders. Anyway, i have decided to go for the sentosa camp thing. Coz its look darn fun. And its supposed to be a retreat, cos Its for us to unwind after a shit week full of exams. this retreats only for those who did well for science. I thank GOD for letting me go for this camp. I NEVER pay attention to miss wang, yet i still miraculously got good marks. Well , credit goes to wanzhen too anyway. She kept nagging so the only way to keep her quiet was to study. And i know , its for my own GOOD! haha. Thanks, wanzhen.
Today science we had a funny incident , someything that woild lighten up after a BORING period or two of science. Miss wang asked for another name for faeces. we all answered, "shit" . Haha. Then we all cracked up. She said " there are other names for faeces, not just the S WORD" haha. She doesnt even dare say shit. poor her, she doesnt know whats shes missing.

good point of the day: GB was nice :)
bad point: the little stray cat wanzhen and i always pat on the way to shool is ill :(. She even snuggled unto me, thats not good news as this cat isnt the intimate sort. Wanzhen says we are going to pool our money together to bring it to the vet. Its really obviously sick. I am so sad, i dont want it to die.

today i didnt go to school.i wasnt feeling well. apparently, those who got the top ten marks in every class willget to go on a $50 trip to sentosa. I am in a serious dilemma. Firstly, its a choice whether to go or not.

plus points of going:
-I DESERVE to go. I won the top ten, and its extremely rare for someone as lazy as me.
-My friends are going
-Its SENTOSA, i dont get to go there everyday, though often enough xD
-its and OVERNIGHT trip!
-Frankly, i am after the experience, not the fun.

negative points of going:
-Qianyi REALLY wants to go, while i am not so enthuastic about it.
-Its a friday, thats my, "chill and relax day" and that means sleeping th ewhole afternoon.
-the next day i got church, i doubt i will be able to make it on time.
-its an overnight trip, so means i will be spending a terrible night with hillgrovians and teachers. Ancient practice for torture.
- i do NOT have edusave, which means i have to pay $50 out of my own pocket as my parents are out of town.

i dont know what to do

PS: LADY AYRA GOT MARRIED! GRATZ

todays monday, 6.03.06 [:
i am happy. although we starved to death without having our lunch and head off to teach little midgets with our stomachs growling, haha. its frustrating you know. School, the lesson were boring as usual. I got 43 for my science. not really good. The class which was supposedly less intellectually capable ( no offence) got 46.5/50 as their highest marks.2e5 by the way. and i dont wanna know what 2e2 got. 50/50 or something. 2e1 the highest is just 44, whom is adam. grats by the way.
today i went to wanzhens house and irritated the hell out of someone, we also crapped around and insulted one another ( in a friendly manner of course) Then when i was headed home guess who i saw? greyia!! The cat i had some history with on friday. i sunggled with greyia and patted her nonstop. aww . i love her. the most heart-wrenching thing is that i had to leave her for home. and she look at me with those pair of gigantic beautiful yellow eyes. Broke my heart. but it broke my nose too by the way. I sneezed the whole journey back, greyaia drops ALOT of fur.

high point: I SAW GREYIA !!
low point: screwed up during buddy reading

rachel

hello again :)
today was as usual horrid. Joey decidedly loves to piss me off. My art i totally screwed up. I didnt pat me and wanzhen's beloved stray cat this morning as i was late. typical. I am always late. and that morning had an extremely important science test. Luckily for me, theres this girl, whom actually told me " kwasime" yes i know, i shouldnt have looked at her, but i didnt actually. anyway she saved my butt as i was late, which by hillgrove tradition you have to run frantically like a lunatic before you can go and attend your classes. usually, i would have loved an opportunity to skip my classes, but i had a test. That girl helped me to tell, not actually tell, but to snap t the teacher to let me go for my science test. he didnt actually allow at first, but the girl retorted louder and louder so he let me go. Thanks girl, whoever you are :)

minus point of the day:
joey totally dissed me

plus point: I went to pat the cat after school with wanzhen. and we threw fries at alwyn and his friends. wankers.

point to declare: hillgrove is horrid. Pls kill yourself if you go to that school

Today is the 1st of march. wednesday. wanzhen and i joined the debate team for english. its pretty fun. i am in the team with amirul and hazwan :). I hope we win, we got a rather attractive anonymous prize. i wanted charlene and agnes in my group though, the reason is clear, they are rather easy-going, and will not disagree with everything you say. Thats what you need in a debate team , i believe, something that will allow the team to think with one mind, and back each other up. It would be my second time debating.
sigh. guess what? apparently alwyn got in trouble if 2e4.. shucks. i feel horrid now. dunno what to do about him. Miss david doent exactly love him anymore. and certain stubborn mules refused to tell me about it. honestly